Room 606

Even if that song that kept me up that night was new and strange to my ears. It was surprisingly restful as if a little voice saying I am safe and I should not worry about everything. Now that I am living in a dorm, things are working on my desire and if ever it doesn’t, I still have the power to control or alter it. I’m not saying that I’ve become someone who is super independent but rather now, I feel less vulnerable. But even if things work that way, I couldn’t still taste the difference between home and living alone in a dorm. I know it sounds absurd as if I don’t value home that much, but it is true. Actually, someone talked to me before I moved to my dorm, she gave me some fruits of advice like it’s not gonna be easy and I would have to teach myself a lot of new things to be able survive alone. She said that I would definitely miss home so as much as possible, I must go home every weekend. And by the same token, she gave me an advice that I must say accounts to all the ease I am feeling right now. She told me to pray for the room I will be staying at, not just the room but every corners of it. She told me to ask God to protect the place and plant peace and comfort like what home provides. That I should pray to God to keep the place safe and made it a chamber of restfulness to my body and mind. And so I did, I prayed for my room and for all the days I will spend here. I prayed for the safety and peacefulness of every wall that surrounds me. And from then on, there was peace at this room. There was comfort and kind atmosphere. There are smiling faces and unity every morning. A beautiful relationship was planted and I made myself believe that home is close and I could rebuild a fraction of it here in my dorm.

Honestly, this semester’s demands are getting into my nerves but since I couldn’t afford to receive unacceptable grades, I am doing everything I must and could and I am teaching myself to complain less and less each day. Thanks to my dorm because now, I don’t need to travel for one hour and a half before I could rest. And thanks to God because I know that He is guiding me wherever I am. 

He has made everything beautiful in its time.

Ecclesiastes 3:11

Slow down Summer, You're beautiful.

Time would certainly not stop but I wish, somehow, it could slow down. That way I would have enough time to enjoy all the pleasure, the learning and the experiences this summer gave me. That way I could allow myself to stay longer at the place where I always belong with the people I always want to be with. I guess it would be fine to get stuck at one moment if it would mean happiness and love. And if that moment would flourish me within and let me grow as wonderful as I can be, then I would keep it and remember it as long as I live. But either way, I'm not changing again and I've got no plans of straying afar from this whole new life. This time is God's gift and everything I do right now is worthy because of Him. I'm entrusting everything to Him because I believe that He is responsible for all these graces I am receiving every day. 

"He redeems your life from destruction and crowns you with love and compassion; He gives fulfillment to your years, and renews your youth like the eagle's."

Psalm 103: 4-5

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Funny and Strange

Here I go again, unable to understand and grasp this thought. I'm calling this a breezy idea because my brain and and my senses cannot recognize it. Though I am sure of something, or should I say I was sure of something: the feeling was close. Everything around me was gently compressed, the world was small back then. That is how I see it before, a destination only a few blocks away, friendly strangers outside the school's gate, food delivered especially for me, a simple attire and a day filled with joy. Everything was near and easy hold. My innocence was scattered and I almost inconceivably engage on petty fights within my row and even cute-crush-things. I was happy but unsure about some things, although I wasn't completely unsure because as a kid, most of the time I don't care. But this one is different and I knew on that stage that I am going to forget it   easily but remember it again once it dares to come back. Kiddie words but real beyond my years. Strange idea that was never given attention, I never looked for it and I never wanted to see it always. I just knew that it was new and beautiful and likable, nothing more than that. Then before I knew it, years passed and my newly discovered entity already disappeared. I wasn't aware until I've become a busy person and those things transformed to what they call 'childhood memories.'

Happy graduation to my dearest cousin!

Pick the one you favor most

Pick the one you favor most, you are not unfair when you do so. The fact that you want it means you're not swimming in options in the first place. Choose it not because it is the best but because it makes you happy and contented. Some will not understand and even question your flavor, but you don't need to bother yourself because prudent people will. The shallow will find it weird but the keen will see it as something different and even unique. Find the ones who will see it and accept it the way you do, maybe not completely but at least they give support. Your choice is you and they can't call you impulsive or inconsiderate or bias. It is what your heart wants and your mind is just following it. Their eyes will stray as soon as they realize that you made the right choice. 

warm bodies

This is my favorite line in the movie(warm bodies). It made me laugh so hard. How could a walking corpse be so hilarious? 

I bet my friends would never bother to ask me the reasons why because they think that the free sight of uncommon intentions clearly tells the whole story front and behind. But actually, it's all about the details. This is not much of a revelation because I don't want to be careless with my words, but I just wanted to simply  share the reason why my world right now, is peaceful and bright.

Genuine kindness is one of mankind's greatest attributes, and that person is suffused with this character. Pure intentions binds with no ordinary acts. That person thinks that the world would be fine if all people are friends , and to his closest friends, he is precious and cannot be compared. That person can handle things easily, he believes that it is normal to feel hatred, pressure, guilt and annoyance just as long as you clutch all these feelings alone and no one is negatively affected by your actions. When you do a quick check, you can guarantee that that person is an embodiment of greatness or almost perfection. But the truth is,  he is just who he is, a normal person, sometimes average and sometimes above when he thinks he's lucky, not perfect at all but blessed with talents. 

There is one thing I know about that person, he is amazing inside and out. I believe that God brought that person to this world to give happiness to everyone, to bring luck and positive air, to share his talents, to make everyone feel worthy of something, and lastly, to make someone feel special and loved, again. 

(That person is in a movie, guess)